“I will never be satisfied. Life is one constant search for betterment for me.” Jayne Mansfield
By: Gabriela Yareliz
I want to know that I have peace about some things. I have let go of others. I want to have a settled spirit. You know, the kind you can’t f*** with, as we say in New York. I want to be warm with others. I want to be accountable and hold others accountable (thank God I am a lawyer, right?). I want to consistently hold profound unshakeable joy in me.
I want to keep reading magical books that open the mind to new ideas. I want to draw more pictures. I want to keep learning languages, and master Russian at a different level. I want to smile in the face of adversity, knowing all things work together for good. I want to see God’s miracles everywhere. I want to always have a heart of service.
I want to create the future as only an uninhibited child would. I want to see all these things in me and be totally unbothered if others are committed not to. I want to give art and beauty more space. I want to get stronger, physically and mentally.
I want to accept more rest. I want to set aside perfectionism, where so many of us think we derive our value from. I want to maximize life at every step. I want to keep writing letters to the mayor (they painted the bridge— thank God. You’re welcome, Brooklyn and Staten Island). At each moment, I want to feel fully alive. I want to stop working like a machine and leave the familiar numbness behind.
I want to explore. I want to keep laughing. I want to keep dreaming, like LiMu Emu.
Every day is a gift. I never tire of saying it. Every day, I want to learn, grow and be better.
I don’t think I will ever be satisfied. Mansfield said it best.
GABRIELA YARELIZ 