By: Gabriela Yareliz
I woke up in such a funk. First, I barely slept. I was exhausted, but my mind was racing and racing. I turned on the rain scene from the Calm app, and somehow and at some point, I drifted off to sleep. Torrential rains washed away the anxieties of the day.
I was sad this morning. Maybe it was the PMS, maybe it was the loneliness— maybe both? I went straight to work, at my little desk. Still making good on my no-homeless-chic days. I brushed my hair and put on makeup.
Midday, a little girl neighbor was outside singing. She was screeching. Like singing-at-the-top-of-her-lungs-Sound-of-Music type singing. Someone yelled at her (they were probably telling her to shut up— probably the fire escape guy, up one floor), but she kept singing. I am glad. That guy plays loud annoying music. #payback
I loved her attitude. She didn’t care. She kept singing. Was she annoying? Yes. Was she cute? Also, yes. Was she joyful? Yes. (I wonder if she is part of the family building that bunker…)
Something that helped me today was thinking about what I will do after all of this is over (assuming we living souls in NYC survive this like some apocalypse movie). Anticipation brings some perspective.
At 2 pm, I decided to take a 15 min power nap. I set the timer and wandered over to the side of the bed by the window. I napped in a ray of sunshine and woke up with new perspective. My mind was racing until it wasn’t. Stillness.
Stillness, while it seems like nothing, can give us exactly what we need. I worked 9 hrs today, and now it’s time to seek more stillness. Still your mind. The world keeps spinning,
spinning,
and spinning,
but stillness will give you what you need.
Shhh.
GABRIELA YARELIZ 